Did I fall off the wagon? Of course! But I am human and it's what we do positively with our mistakes that make us a success. I have decided today to make my health and well being more of a priority. I thought that it was about how far I could run or about how good I looked in my clothes. It isn't about that.
I struggle with stress and sometimes it overwhelms me. What the past month has taught me is that i am not indestructable.
Let me back up a bit...at the beginning of the year, I told friends and family they should keep me accountable for showing up to family events, parties, camping trips and any other social gatherings. I am notorious for burning out at the end of a week and flaking on plans. :) Don't do it on purpose, but I love my job and pour all of what I am into it every day. This sometimes leaves me with little left on the weekends to give.
Since my proclomation to attend all events possible and my family's promise to keep me from bowing out, I have discovered that I can't do it all. I love what I do get to do socially and I am happy while I am doing it. When the weekend ends, however, and a new week is dawning, I frantically search my soul for nourishment to get me through another week.
This is what has led me to where I am. I want to be capable of jumping for joy every day that I am employed doing what I love. I want to partake in social gatherings without fear of falling apart before a new week begins. I want to be content, satisfied, fulfilled, and happy. How the heck do I do that?!
By taking better care of myself physically and mentally.
Running is, for some people, about how far they can run or how fast they can run. There is absolutely nothing wrong with that. I have just discovered that for me, it is about letting go of stress, getting stronger, building endurance, and channeling my inner spirit.
Who cares if I run in a 5k or a marathon? Who cares if I have skinny, toned thighs? No one. But, there are people who care if I show up to work. Not just my boss, but my clients....and me. There are people who care if I come to their 6th birthday party. Not just my mom, but my first nephew...and me.
So, starting today, I am going to run for health and wellbeing. What does that mean? Well, no heart rate monitor to make sure I burned enough calories is one thing. No running calendar to track how far I went and how long it took is another. I am going to put one foot in front of the other for me.
Remembering what is important in life is key. Skinny jeans, while being able to fit into and look good in them, are not imporatant. :) Being healthy is! Here I go, off into the land of fitness to ensure a healthy, happy, well-balance me. Stay tuned to see how it goes.
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Stephanie Miller
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